Wednesday, August 15, 2012

April 2012 Conference: Mountains to Climb

After a day full of school projects, birthday celebrations, and Target I came home to a quiet house and decided to go to to watch some of the LDS General Conference talks that had been broadcast earlier that day. Almost by accident (but I don't think it was an accident) I found this amazing talk by 
Henry B. Eyring. My family so needed this message when President Eyring presented this talk at the April 2012 conference.  As I listened I had the distinct spiritual impression that the Lord was aware of our families needs and that he was going to help all of us get through this. I know that Heavenly Father always keeps the promises he makes to his children.

As I revisit this talk I realize that there is more for me to learn here. Although the roller-coaster ride from hell is over, the grief has set in.  I like to compare grief to waves. The grief is always there, but at times it feels far away. Other times it comes crashing down on me. I pray that the deep sense of loss will go away. Tonight the answer to my prayers is this:

"That curing does not come automatically through the passage of time, but it does take time.Getting older does not do it alone. It is serving God and others persistently with full heart and soul that turns testimony of truth into unbreakable spiritual strength."

It looks like I have some work to do.

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Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Birthday Wishes from 3.31.2012

For Mom's birthday party celebration my sister made these cute little cupcake pages for the kids to decorate. A lot of the grown-ups made one too. Here are some of the birthday messages written to Mom:

Thank you for your example. Love you.
- Linda Bone -

We love you! You are a shining star!
- Carolyn Smith -

I admire your strength and courage and just think you are a wonderful person with amazing spirit.
- Emily Johnson -

I just want you to know how much you mean to me. Thank you for always sharing your love and kindness with me. You are beyond special in my book. I love you.
- Heather Kellogg -

Just want you to know how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I couldn't ask for a better sister...Love you forever and always, no matter what.
- Cyndie -

Aunt Madge,
I may not have ever expressed how much you mean to me, but you have always been my favorite aunt. I love you so much and appreciate the example of integrity, strength, and unconditional love you have always shown by simply being you.I love you.
- Cassie -

Thank you for your great example to our family and ward...we love you.
- The McCoys -

I love you so much!! You are such an inspiration to me!
- Jess Gifford -

I will always remember when you were my singing leader in Primary, and your stories of George W. I will also remember your sweetness. Thanks for everything.
- Anna Nott -

You are my shining star. I love you! Thanks for being there for me. You have been a great friend.
- Becky -

Happy Birthday to the coolest, grooviest, special agent I know! Love ya!
- Todd Chief -

You are wonderful! Love you. You are a great friend.
- Robb -

Dearest Madge,
I loved serving with you. I learned a lot from you and had such a good time. I love your quick smile and cute laugh. Mostly, I just love you.
- Sister Stevenson -


Monday, August 6, 2012

Her Birthday 3.31.2012

Mom's birthday was coming. She was too sick to go anywhere and material goods didn't seem to have any value given the situation. We wanted her day to be special, but didn't know what to do. 
Dayna had an idea. She thought that we could get the primary kids to come and sing happy birthday to her. 
At first we wrote the idea off. 

After thinking about it for a few days I decided that I thought that we could do it and we should do it! 
So many people wanted to do something to help. I thought that singing Happy Birthday was something that everyone could participate in.   Instead of inviting just the kids we would invite the entire ward. With the help of Facebook, Bishop Rupp, and other family members we got the word out and just hoped that someone, anyone would show up. 

 We didn't even tell Dad what we were doing. We didn't want to risk the chance of him saying NO. Imagine his surprise when preparations began in his garage a few hours before the party started.

Family members helped blow up balloons and put Dayna's butcher paper signs up on the front lawn. Mom was resting in the sick room and had no idea what was going on just outside the window...

As 1:00pm approached we were getting a little nervous tIhat people weren't going to show up. That is when I looked up 600 West and saw it...

A sea of red
(red, Mom's favorite color). 

The sea of red was the members of my Mom's ward walking to our house. I will never forget looking up that street and seeing all those people. I was moved to tears. Humbled by the support.

The front yard was covered with people. While we waited for family members to get there we had everyone start writing birthday wishes on these cute cupcake papers that Dayna made.

 Dad put Mom in the wheelchair and brought her to the front door. When we opened it and she saw all the people she was thrilled. From the porch she shouted out to her friends from work. She was so excited to see them. We handed out balloons and sang the traditional Happy Birthday to Mom. After we sang everyone wanted to talk to Mom. They formed a little line down the front porch and on to the sidewalk and lawn. If mom was tired or in pain we couldn't tell. She took time to speak with every single person that showed up to help her celebrate her day. She was truly a class act.

Later she said that she loved it and that it was perfect. 

Perfect...for her I hope that it truly was.

It was a day that I will never forget.